Monthly Archives: February 2017

Choosing a different Street

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It has been some time since I last wrote, and much has happened in that time. I felt quite low after the dislocations in October 2015 and was waiting for some surgery to revise the failed hip and make life better again. Sadly this was not to be.

At the end of February 2016, almost a year to the day, and once my blood pressure reduced to an acceptable level, I had revision surgery on my left hip. Unfortunately the wound did not heal and 10 days later I was taken to hospital with a serious joint infection. I was in hospital almost a month with e coli mutations and on IV antibiotics through a PICC line. Low Hb meant doing further surgery was difficult.

It was April, and after a month of IV antibiotics at home and daily dressing changes for a copiously weeping wound with 4 sinuses, I went back into hospital for a Girdlestone procedure where the hip joint was removed completely. My surgeon put in a spacer to still give me a joint, but unfortunately this dislocated before I even got out of bed post x ray 48 hours later. Also, there were Gentomycin beads to try to target the infection. We looked forward to three months later when, hopefully, all would be well and a new joint put in.

In this time I kept quite optimistic and we even went as far as to book a holiday cottage which was wheelchair friendly. My bedroom had been moved downstairs to my office (The Growlery) and I had the company of my husband and mother-in-law for much of the late spring and early summer.

This also did not turn out as planned. Another sinus resurfaced and at the end of August I returned to hospital with a whole new set of infections in the joint – Klebsiela and Strep B. and another lengthy stay following surgery to remove the dislocated spacer and remaining beads – those that had not exploded all over our hall floor the night before, resulting in yet another trip in an ambulance. This time we had to cancel our holiday and I fell back into the black hole.

We hoped for three months of infection free and antibiotic free from the end of November, when the IV antibiotics finally stopped again and a promised date for surgery to put another new hip in and get mobile again. This is also not to be. I have little bone, tissue and no adductor muscle left after the many surgeries to clean out this joint. My surgeon is cautious at this stage about the increased risks of infection with no muscle protection, the difficulties of surgery and the possibilities of things going wrong at my (tender!!) age. He wants to do a biopsy to find out why fluid is yet again building up in that space, but won’t attempt a new joint again for at least another three months. This is the fourth lot of three months we are waiting.

Perhaps three months seems a sensible time for him to think we can wait. However, this time we are holding out little hope for anything being done anytime soon. Hopes being dashed so many times have left us all drained. So, with that in mind there are two choices. Go back down the same road and risk falling into the same black hole again, or choose a different road.

I think a new street, with different views is in order. Maybe it is a road I continue to take in a wheelchair. If so, then we need to find a house I can access on my own and not be confined to bedroom, living room and kitchen. I can’t even get in a shower without my husband – and that is in the downstairs guest room – and haven’t seen the upstairs of my own house since April last year. I need to live somewhere where I can get out on my own, with no steps and no need to be lifted in and out, so completely reliant again on my husband. He is at work 27 miles away full time, so a lot of time is spent alone. I have businesses I can partly run online, so will concentrate on those parts. I will try to write every day and maybe one day have the courage to write the books that I have thought of for so long. I will look for holiday cottages that have wheelchair access so we can go away together this year. It may not be Italy as we hoped and it may be booked the weekend we go – just in case! – but it is part of the plan.

So this new street has estate agent windows to look into, travel agents, books to read and research, people to talk to online and anything else that will help me lift my mood and look forward to my life as it is now.